earlier this month i passed my 6 month mark, as in, i've officially been living in the city for 6 months. the first month i honestly didn't think i could do it. and looking back i'd have to say last year was the worst of my life. i felt like i had lost so much in the process of getting here. and sometimes i still do. but there's a lot gained in the process of being here. it's not easy. try it, i dare you. it's been so much more than i could have ever imagined and if i knew exactly what i was getting into maybe i wouldn't have left. but i'm glad that i jumped in head first not knowing. fears should be conquered and i face mine everyday but my eyes are finally wide open. i'm closer now than i've ever been to some of the best friends i've ever had. near and far. here's to new beginings.
i do miss the ones i've left behind.
you know what i fear, it is always near